Is there a way to ever turn time into something that stops when i'm happy?

am i a nuisance?

yesterday, i was planning to ask all my 1e2 friends out to celebrate my belated birthday. but, they all went to Buva's birthday thing. am i that insignificant?

At least Daryl found out that it was my birthday the day before, thus he agreed to go eat sakae with me. (:

i asked daryl, if i was his friend. i wonder what i am? 

today, jephthah had planned an outing. he asked people out, and i realised, after so long, i am no longer being invited to any of these outings anymore? 

what happened to my friends? are they all moving on?

Anson and Ramdan are still having cold war, and i dont understand ramdan. not anymore. he is in some difficulty, he cant forgive anson. he feels hurt by anson, but i know anson was just joking! he doesnt give a fuck about what anson intended! anson didnt intend to hurt ramdan. HE DIDNT.

what is going on? im screwing up my life, i have lost interest in studying, and my friends are leaving me. 

and seriously, i've gotta stop being close to daryl. i dont wanna fall insanely. 

he told me, i can message him every minute, and he enjoys messaging me. 

holy shit, this is not happening.