Life?

It obviously has its ups, and downs. 

 well, i've just turned sixteen. Not very mature yet, still drowning in homework. 

Watching You're my destiny Drama, really romantic. I know those are all just fairytales, but i really wanna live in one too you know. 

I dont know how to just, BE FRIENDS. because, i know i really want someone to love me. 

But, Ramdan told me, not be think about that, cause once love comes into the picture, the friendship will be gone. 

i understand.

its just that, im always seeking, always not satisfied.Why?

life is just not that fair is it. I just sometimes, just sometimes, feel inferior and i really wanna hug from someone. someone who cares. 

I know all my friends care, but do they ever once consider, that i feel pressured insanely by them?

I dont know, because i presume they dont. i dont understand, why inbetween us we must have so much difference, and bitchings. I know i bitch, but its something that is really wrong. and its not like we've never let you know.

recently kinda close to daryl. its Daryl Lauw. not Daryl Goh. I have completely forgotten him already.

Yongkiong asks me, if i have fallen for Daryl. I dont want to, i dont hope to, and i pray hard i better wont. I just really hope, that for once, i can be a friend. A friend.

I just want a good friend who will stand by me. I dont wanna fall into anything, not yet.

Even though he is a really nice guy, or whatsoever. I mustn't like him, and he should never get a wrong signal from me.

omgomg LIYING, WAKE UP. better stay a distance from him now. 

History must not repeat itself.